Tuesday, October 2, 2012

It's a........


Baby!


Boy!

Again.

Which made me depressed.  To say otherwise wouldn't be honest.  I wanted a girl.  It made me sad to know that tutus aren't in my immediate future (you do what you want when you're older, dude.  No judgement.)  Then, as if being disappointed about that wasn't enough, I was disappointed in myself for being disappointed.  Ungrateful.  Bad mama.  Sad.  Tears.  Then we told G and he just kept saying, "I want a tister."  Then I kept telling Ben that we would be alone for ever for all holidays and that the deal is now sealed... I'm guaranteed to be a crazy MIL.

But... I think I've made it to the other side.  To say I didn't google "can a 16 week boy sonogram be wrong" would be... false.  I did.  I did that.  Somewhere the government has it on record.  I'm going to deny it, though just like my college illegally downloaded music.  I think what first set me off is that the lady called it a "weenie."  Um?  grow up.  lets call it what it is... a tallywacker.  Kidding.  I call it a penis.  Then I kept asking... "are you sure?"  She said yes.  So, I'm going with that instead of the people on the googles who use the word "cud" to mean "could."  She seemed more reliable than that.

So welcome baby boy.  I promise I'll love you to the ends of the earth.  I'll even name you.  And squeeze you.  And vow to save your life like I do with your big brother.  Basically, you are going to lead me to a life of mom jeans.  I know it's true, but I love you anyway.  Now if you could make some big movements in there to let me know you're kickin' I'd like it.  Now where are my crocs...

I think I'll have a cookie to persuade you.

9 comments:

CDS said...

People with 2 boys LOVE it! xoxo...and remember if G$ marries C...then tutus are in your future!!

A.B. said...

maybs some sparkly toms?

Sarah K said...

I know how you're feeling right now. Totally normal. Let me just say, there is something SO sweet and unbreakable about two brothers. They fight, play and love each other something fierce. You will have dirty socks and underwear piled to the ceiling and you will LOVE it. I promise. Congrats!

Jill said...

I felt the same way when I found out Laura was a girl. I desperately wanted a boy. But now I love that my babes are the same sex because I think they'll be great playmates (or maybe that's wishful thinking on my part). And just think - you won't have to deal with all the girl drama of the teenage years. And there won't be fights about hair. I'm just saying. Congrats! I'm so happy for you and your new baby boy. He will be fabulous!

A.B. said...

Thank you Sarah for the support and commiseration. And you, too Jill! Le sigh. I also had some dramatic feelings about knowing this is my last baby that were COMPLETELY unexpected.

Mom feelings are overwhelming sometimes.

I'm glad I'm not alone in being disappointed in my *so far perfectly healthy baby.

Anonymous said...

Clearly I am horrible at predicting your baby's gender. I thought for sure girl. But I also thought Lucie was going to be a boy. And I loved, loved the name we had chosen for the baby boy that I was sure we were going to have. Now we love Lucie very much, and I also recognize that there is still a sense of loss over the son, John and I now know that we will never have in our family....until our daughters get married, assuming to boys :) DM

Jill said...

Amanda - I totally know what you mean about the dramatic feelings about this being the last baby. I had those too. Still have them sometimes actually. I think it's completely normal (or at least I tell myself that to make me feel better).

A.B. said...

Jill, I'm all for safety in numbers!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

but just think, they will be the best of friends!! and their is something so special about mama's and their boys :)

also, congrats lady!!!!